You have proved me wrong in the biggest way possible, but staying with me through all these months and never giving up on me. I know throughout these months there has been hard times, but with our ways of communication we fought through them and are better than I even thought I could be with any boy. Boy, you are the first boy to be in my life this long romantically. I usually get tired of a guy being in my life for so long. I get a sense that I am locked down that I am never good enough or something along those lines. With you though you make me feel like I am in control of my life while still being in yours.
We complement each other, we have helped each other grow within so many parts of our lives. I have never had a boy who has cared so much about me and who do anything for me. I have had boys tell me all the ‘crap’ (it isn’t crap anymore when it comes to you) before and I never had the heart to believe it. Now I do though when you tell me that you deeply care for me I believe, I believe it so much that I almost ran from it once and almost ran from it completely once as well. Since those attempts though I can honestly tell you Boy that I will not run again from you. I just couldn’t I saw how much it tore you apart and I saw your weeping eyes roam around the room we were in when I started to run. I felt like I was running with your heart, running so fast yet so slow that it was pulling from you and you could feel that pain. It was something I never planned on doing to you and I never will.
You tell me I am beautiful and you don’t know this, but every time you say it I believe it. I believed it the first time you told me, but I didn’t want to because I was afraid to get hurt, but babylove I believe you now and I am not afraid to get hurt. You have done so many things to prove to me that you are not going anywhere and you are not plotting any ways to get rid of me anytime soon. We don’t know the future and yeah I don’t like that, but I have learned to deal with it because I am fine with how we are. I know what you hope to happen and I am the most hopeful giwaffe ever!
I can see this lasting m’love. I can see us being together in the long run. I can see us rekindling if the kindle was lost. I can see us being in love always. I can see so many things for us.
I want to thank you for all the things you have done for me in these 8 months.
I love you.